"Now as they went on their way, Jesus entered a village. And a woman named Martha welcomed Him into her house. And she had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet and listened to His teaching. But Martha was distracted with much serving. And she went up to Him and said, ‘Lord, do you not care that my sister has left me to serve alone? Tell her then to help me.’ But the Lord answered her, ‘Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things, but one thing is necessary. Mary has chosen the good portion which will not be taken from her.’"
- Luke 10:38-42
Tonight I flipped open my Bible for the first time in months and ended up in Luke 10. I’ve read this passage so many times and have heard so many sermons preached on it. For most of my life, I saw myself as Mary, just absorbing every little thing that Jesus said to me. But tonight I realized that I was Martha. For the last few months, I’ve been trying to earn the Father’s love through serving and trying to live a perfect life. It was so exhausting. I would become frustrated with new Christians who were so in love with Jesus and so at peace that I became bitter. I finally got to the point where I was like “Forget it. I’m not even trying anymore.” and that’s where I’ve been. But tonight the Lord reminded me what the good portion is. He is the good portion and I want Him.
